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Please do your part and help....

Thank you!!


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Thank you Jesus!

I've been praying for a case in my part-time job. A one-to-one patient case. Less stressful and good pay.

But this morning, they called me to work in a Oncology ward which I dread to go, yet I agreed. And the probably of working night shift is there...

Then guess what? They just called me up and said, the Oncology ward case is closed and they got me a one-to-one case! It's a crainotomy case! I know I can do this..

Mon-Fri 8am to 8pm!! Almost 1K a week!! Yipee!!

Thank you Jesus!!

The good old days..

Last night I met bud up for coffee..
Well, more for me to pour sorrows to her.
But last min, a good old friend called and wanna meet up too.

And DAH DAH!!
He was the VIP last night..
One of the boys on my "best bud boys" list..

We had so much fun catching up..

Then talking about those good old days in secondary school...

"black" money for ciggies...
"childish" boys' fights..
boy-chase-girl crazes..
chopstick-stabbing..
void-deck smoking..

Lots of laughter.. Till I nearly had asthma attack.. Boy, I miss those good old days..


And I'm really glad to have bud by my side all these years..
Sharing my happiness and woes..
She always seems to understand what I'm going through..
Giving me all her frank advices and point of view..

Bud, thank you sooo much! I love you!


Anyway, we wanna meet the rest too. Planning to ask the rest of the "Bud Boys" out for the next meeting up!

Yipee!

What do you think..

"What do you think about a doctor, "medical personal" who is a smoker, to go and advise his patients not to smoke? Will it work? - Actions speaks louder than words."

Personally, my most frank point of view, being a smoker is the doctor's personal life's choice. And asking his patients not to smoke is his job.



Oh.. For goodness' sake... Gimme a break!

Worst nightmare

I wanna be my own Worst nightmare!

Its time to push myself into the deep blue sea...

hmmm...

deep hot lava sound better....

The break up - part 2

I read your blog just now.
I have got nothing to say.
Everyone has their own thinking and feelings.
You have yours and I have mine.

I maybe wrong towards certain issues.
And you have your reasons to feel and say those things.

This break up is done and over.
I don't wish to say anything much more now.
I don't feel like talking now.

I just wanna be alone.
Do things that I have planned to do.
Do things that I enjoy doing.
Change the way I wanna change.

Maybe after some days, I may then talk again.
For GOD knows how long, I really just wanna be alone now.

The break up

Recieved the sms from you this morning.

You said, you love me, care abt me, & you only want gd things for me.
You said, thru these incidents, its obvious we really can't communicate.
You said, I even feel that you're judging me & focusing on my bad points only.
You said, you will listen to me, you will leave everything to me, trust that I know what I am doing and that I will settle my problem.
You said, you will also pray for me so that all the things I say and do will come true and everything will turn out well for me..
You said, but you really can't try to work things out anymore...
You said, Its too hurtful for you to quarrel with me like that everytime we talked about my sensitive issues.
You said, you'll always be my friend and a phone call away if I need my help.


I wanna say,

Thank you for loving and caring for me. Thank you for only wanting good things for me. But you never say these words to me till crucial moments like these.

Yes, something is really wrong about the way we communicate. I still dunno what went wrong or where. Maybe I'm too simple minded about things. Maybe I am just not sensitive enough when you think I should be. Maybe because you always believe actions speaks louder than words, while I still dying to hear sugar-coated sweet nothings from you. Boy, girls do fall in love through their ears... (provided words are being said by someone they wanna hear from). Or maybe the way we see things are different.

Yes, I feel that you're judging me and seeing my bad points only. I know you didn't. You said it last night. But I also did said why I felt that way. Cause you say sweet nothings to me, no more. Okie, to be fair, I should say lesser. Not as often as you did in the past. Its to the extend, you will only call me baby, ask me to drink more water and rest more. Full-stop.

Thank you for leaving my problems to myself. I really appreciate that. I grew up in the way, I never like to share my problems with anyone. Even if I do, I never want anyone to worry for me or even try settle the problem for me. Cause I never want to be anyone's burden. Never ever. I will do settle things myself. I will learn to be a better person that way.

You really can't try work things out anymore. I'm sorry, I can't accept your reason. But like I said, I'll let you go. It's okie, don't worry. I'll be okie on my own.

It is too hurtful each time we quarrel when we talk about my sensitive issues? How many sensitive issues you think I have? I only know of one. Thats about my baby. I got worked up because you said I am not ready to be a mum because I don't even know how to plan my own financial issue. Yes, I know I have issues with money. Cause to me, money is never everything. Money is fuckin' important, I jolly well know that. I have changed in the way I handle money, not in any big fuckin' major way, but I am happy that I did changed. And I can do whatever I am doing now, its because I am still single. Naturally I only worry about myself. I do enjoy being poor at times, cause those are the moments when I will really feel more appreciative about little things in life. Nvm, I know you may not understand how that feel.
And being a Mommy is not just about $$ issues. I'm sorry but to me, noone, I say, noone can say that to me, cause noone fuckin knows how much I really did suffered and noone knows how much I did for my child. Noone really knows how much I fuckin' struggled and fight for my child. Fuckin' noone!

And thanks for wanting to be my friend always. But don't worry, you won't hear me calling you for help. Cause I know I will not..


Yes, I know I may sound stubborn to you now. But thats the way I am. I give everything I can in this relationship. I tried and tried so hard, but its always you who wanna end it. I don't have the strength to pull myself up and wanna try again. I admit my defeat.

And do take care. And all the best, friend.

Good bye.. *smile*

Wake up call

Nope, I'm not talking about the simple wake up calls that people usually have every morning.
I'm talking about something more than that, or should I say, a Whole Lot more than that.

Just finished a 2 hours long tearful talk with Baby, pouring out how we feel towards this "relationship". Or maybe at least I know I poured things out. Towards the end of the heated conversation, Baby hit my "G-spot". Yes, a very highly-sensitive issue for me. And that he "woke me up".

Well, its not the 1st time he did that. But this time the impact is a LOT more harder. I had an answer to a big question in my life.

I'm going to make a Big fuckin' confession here. So if you're reading this as my friend, just keep it to yourself. It's not a big secret but I rather not want anyone to take it as a "topic-of-their-day".

Okie, here goes...

I had a baby before. A real baby, a gift from GOD. But I chose to abort it. It's not a pleasant event, thus I never like to bring it up. I never agree to abortions. To me, it's a coward's way out. Every close friends I have in poly days, can tell you that. But why in the end I chose that option? Seriously speaking, I don't feel comfortable touching on that here.
But one thing for sure, I have not forgive myself for that. I thought I did, cause @ that point of time, it was, to me, the right thing to do.
But no, I haven't forgive myself for that.

I will never know how my baby looked like.
I will never even know if it's a boy or girl.
I will never know how his/her cries sound like.
I will never know how is it like to carry him/her.
Many many things I will never ever get to know.

Anyway, back to the "wake-up-call". Baby reminded me of a promise I made. A promise to my own flesh & blood.

And that promise made me realised why I was still in agony each time I think of my baby.

That is because I have been in a denial stage for too long. Far too long.

I wanted to forget about the unhappy happenings to the extend, I made myself to forget about the promise.

Why am I still feeling so guilty? That is because I have not fuckin' keep my promise!! That important promise I made to my baby on that fatal night. How could I???!!!

It's so funny how GOD always give you your answers at the weirdest way. I really thank GOD for Baby waking me up.

I have now, wrote the promise down. And I'm gonna pin it up high and remind myself everyday about it! I don't wanna forget about it anymore. I don't wanna live in denial stage anymore. I am so gonna keep this promise!

Yes, I am doing it!

Thank you Baby.. Thank you for enduring my "nonsenses" for months..

Thank you so so much..

Things haven't been the same..

Maybe I have too much time on hand..
Maybe I have been too sensitive...
Maybe I am not understanding enough...
Or maybe things have really change...

The loving feeling has gone...
I dunno how or when..
But somehow, you've lost that loving feeling..

You don't ask me for a date anymore..
You make plans for us no more..
You've lost that sparkles in your eyes when you look at me..
Or should I say, you no longer look into my eyes so often now..

No more smelling of my hair..
No more compliments for me..
You don't even stroke my arms like you would always do in the past.. (you said you love to do that..)

You don't plant kisses on my face anymore..
You don't smile the way you do, at the sight of me anymore..
You don't call me as often as before..
You don't even sms me as often as before..

You don't make time for just the two of us these days..
You don't kiss me good night anymore...
You don't greet me with the usual morning kiss anymore..

These are some of the little things that make me feel neglected.. (read: some)

Sometimes I even feel that you are more interested talking to your friends than me..
Sometimes I feel like a burden to you..
Sometimes I feel like a fool in your eyes, or maybe even a nuisance to you..
Sometimes I feel insignificant to you..
Sometimes I even feel you love me no more..
And the feeling gets stronger these few days..

I'm sorry that I maybe wrong. But this is how you made me feel..

For example, I called you last night, you said you would call me back after dinner. You did. Then again you said you going to iron your clothes and would call me back. You did. Then you asked why did I not sleep early since I am sick. Yes, blogging was one of the reasons, main reason, I stayed up to wait for your call, cause I miss you like crazy. While waiting, the feeling of being neglected came along again, thats why I ended up blogging about it. Called me stubborn, I will not fight back.

I tried to be understanding.. trust me, I did and even still trying harder now.
But I cannot fight the feeling of neglected, its getting stronger day by day..

Tell me straight in my face if you don't wanna try again...
You know my part well, I hope I did make it clear to you.
I wanna be with you, but I can't be a superwoman...

Have you ever heard of this before?

"you can always give without loving, but you can never love without giving..."

Do you understand, baby?

fuckin' sick!

My fuckin' sinus is back haunting me!

Feel like choppin off my nose, cause it hurts like mad!

Feel like puttin my hand into my throat to scratch cause it itch like mad!

I hate my sinusitis! Fuckin hate it!!

bye

bye Uncle...

I dunno what else I can say.. You left so suddenly...

The feeling is so strong, yet I can find no words to describe it.

Thank you for being our best neighbour. Thank you for all the fresh fishes you got for us for dinners. Thank you for sharing your joys with us. Thank you for being part of my childhood.

Thank you, Uncle..

We will miss you...

Good bye...

20 more days..

Baby's birthday's coming!!

I am soo excited..

I am up to no good!!

*evil grinz*

My "marriage proposals"

Being at the age of 25, I have had two men proposed to me before.

Lucky me, you may think. But there is sure a good reason why I am still single now.

The guys, they just proposed at the most unusual ways. Ways that I can't help it but turned them down.

The 1st dude, was someone I really thought that I would end up marrying to and have a "happily-ever-after" ending. We had a wonderful five years relationship that ended as a "tragedy".

Anyway, I cant really remember when, but it was definitely after we broke off, he came up to my place one day and tried to patch things up. He suddenly said this, "You know? I really wanna marry you. I really want you as my wife. Just gimme two more years. Two more years and I'll want to marry you. I know your dream is to be ........blah...blah...blah...Will you?Will you gimme the chance, please?"

Oh boy.. you made everything sounded so wonderful. I was really touched for that moment, in fact I cried. But we have broke off! We had said and done things that hurt each other! How can I just forget everything and jumped up to say "YES! I DO!"?? I'm sorry. I can't do it.

But well, I'm glad that you did got married two years later.. I'm happy that you are happy too. Cross my heart.. but it's really weird to know that you are using (what bud called it as), "Recycled Ideas".

Then the 2nd guy. Someone I barely knew for a few months, and definately less than 6 months. He was nice and sweet. Kept buying me gifts and flowers. Be my "chauffeur". Then soon, he started to freak me out.

He will start saying things like, "You know, I was thinking, if one day we ever got married, I wouldn't mind moving to SK from Bukit P. cause I know you wanna be close to your family."
"I know you like to be a taitai.. if we ever get married, just gimme two more years, I can be sure that you don't have to work anymore."
"If someone buy you a five carat diamond ring now, will you marry him?"

To all the above questions/ suggestions and more of which I did not mentioned, I was freaked by that guy! Cause we were just dating then, not even in a relationship!! And the moving from west to east, freak me the most! Cause that guy not only saty in the west, he works in the west, FAR west, too!

Then the most scariest part came. One fine day, he companied me and my dog to the vet. while waiting for the medications, he suddenly placed his hands on mine and said, "Will you please gimme a chance to take care of you and snow?" I FREAKED!! YES! I DID!! Anyway, I dunno how or when, that guy just somehow made himself disappeared ever since.. Thank God!

So, as bud knows, somedays I may just wine and cry saying "No man wants me..." but I guess I am happy this way, better than have these weird "marriage proposals" come knocking at my door. Yes, I still wanna get married and start my own family but I choose to wait. Wait till my Prince Charming come knocking at my door, kneeling down and ask for my hand!

Hahaha! Yup, I'll be waiting...

A date!

Last night Baby brought me out for a date. Just the two of us. I was very excited and happy, cause it has been quite sometime we have not been for a date.

We went Plaza Sing for dinner. Then the food court lights went off just when we were about to start tucking in our food. The moment we finished our food, and thats like 25mins later, the lights came back.. A very 'romantic" dinner.. cheap and good..

Then we went to catch a movie. "Lucky number Selvin". A very nice show.. I always dunno what movie to watch, cause I am afraid that the movie will disappoint me in the end. But I always trust Baby's decision. He always choose the right movies.

Then after the movie, we went to Roomful of Blues. Wanna say "hi" to Sock aka my guardian angel, and Steve and my beloved Sparky!

Had an enjoyable date! I'm looking forward for more! Baby, bring it on!!

last night @ Roomful..

me: "sparky looks so tired. you brought him for a long walk?"

sock: "no.. I brought him a female dog."

me: "no wonder he's so tired..."

sock: "nope. he's more frustrated."

me: "huh? why?"

sock: "he's sterilized mah."

me: "...."

Sparky is my friend's silky terrier who spends most of his time on the supermarket cart. & Sparky loves it!

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me: "Thomas! I wanna tell you a joke!"

thomas: "wahahahahahahahahahahaha!!"

me: "??"

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steve: "you slim down alot huh!"

me: "yah.. no more backside! sad.."

steve: "no backside good mah! like that prove that you not good @ giving birth!"

me: "...."

The Angel & the Devil

I remember when I was young, I loved to watch Mickey Mouse & Donald Duck cartoons. And whenever Donald Duck cannot make up his mind for something, his angel and his devil would appeared on his shoulders fighting.

I feel the same way at times, especially recently. As I have mentioned earlier in my blog, we broke off. Yes, we are no longer an item. That was went it all started...

As usual, the devil will start his fire.. "fuck it and forget it.. whats there to prove when you have already done your best? he always said he will think it over by himself. now he cant take it anymore then he wanna break up.."

Then angel say, "relax.. you know its a miscommunication.. you thought he's okie, cause he said he will think over it himself. now you got to be patient and try again. dun give up..."

devil scream, "oh fuck it.. try what? haven't you done enough? you are not like this.. if he really loves you, he should accept who you are!! you have done more than what you would in the past!! you would have fuck off long ago! why get yourself hurt again?!"

angel's turn, "well, yes, but you have changed.. you used to be loved. now its your turn to love. you got to be patient. you got to know that you cant have the best of everything. you have to learn how not to be selfish again. learn to give.. you used to give more, you can do it again.."

devil snap, "oh fuck it! fuck it! fuck it! for fuck??!! for fuck? havent you suffered enough? fuck it! you gave, you got nothing in return! you still got hurt! for fuck?!"

my angel make no reply, she got quiet. I was fumming inside.. I dunno how I really feel. Angry? Upset? Unappreciated? But I know, I was hurt.. I feel so stupid. feel like a fool, a really stupid one.

After a few deep breath, I got better control of myself.. fuck you, devil. I'm gonna try again.. I suffer even more by listening to you in the past! I'm not going to do that again!! fuck you!

I chose to follow my angel's advice.. I'm prayin hard that things will turn out well.

And to all my confused friends, I will say, we are not an item. We are working things out. So don't ask anything, I will say when I feel like saying.. just wish me all the best!

I saw Jerry Yan!!

hahahahaha!! Caught'ya!! Well, I really did thought I saw him that night. He was waiting for LRT with me, we even got on the same train!! okie, I know the pic is blur. But hey, I am no parapazzi! This is the best I can get! But the fact is, that guy look more like Jerry Yan when he closes his eyes. Like brothers!!

hahahahahahaha!!

hee...

I am so sorry...

I dunno I have comments!! hee..

I dunno I am suppose to "find" them and "publish "them...

I'm still new to this blogger thingy lah..

But still, thank you sooo much for the comments..

I lurve you all.. I'm glad that you guys enjoy reading my blog..

What if one day..

Few weeks back, a thought came into my mind when I was walking Snow.

"What if one day I see Changster again?"

Hmmm... I dunno how I'll react. I have lots of questions to ask him. Lots. But I dunno which one to start from.

"what have I done that makes you move on so easily?"
"what if I've not tell you about the baby?"
"what if I've stay one more night in Melbourne?"
"what if I did really fight for you?"

Lots of thoughts went through my mind.. Questions that I wanna know the answers to. Well, before I carry on, I need to clarify something.

No, I dun wan him back. But I need a "closure" for this. These questions have been in my head for so long. Knowing them, at least I can know if I am such a lousy person or not. (He used to compare me to his current girlfriend aka his wife.)

Yet, I felt a sense of peace. God spoke to me: "what for, my child?" I smiled. yeah, what for?

So what if I know the answers? Nothing in this world will change.
So what if I am a lousy person to him? God, my family, my friends and my Baby still lurves me.

I smiled.

I found my "closure" that night. Not one that I expected, but its definately better. The one God gave me, made me feel so much more peace. No, I dont need to know the answers to my questions anymore.

So ask me again, what if one day you will to see him again?"

I will not say anything. Nothing need to be spoken.

oh.. maybe one thing, "dun you dare to say my fav song to her on your wedding?!"

I Remember You - Skid Row

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and i'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me i came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that i knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - i remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - i remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said i love you babe, without a sound
I said i'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - i remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - i remember you

We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, i love you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - i remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - i remember you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - i remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - i remember you

Skin & Bones

Dad: "what happened to you? you are getting more skinny."

me: "huh? no.."

Dad: "you are just skin and bones now.."

me: "....."

Today, over @ granny's..

me: "Bro, I wanna take International English test..."

bro: "Tats so easy.."

me: "huh? but my friend passed it only after 4th attempt.."

bro: "...."

brother..

Bud and I have always agreed with each other.

Brothers.. They are all the same...

stinky.. bully.. lazy.. yet, they are RICH!! hehehehehe!!!

They are always the BEST!!

I lurve you, big bro!!

Black Hair

Few days ago..

Aunt: "Aiyoh.. Dye your hair black lah. You'll look better and more serious. "

Bud boy: "dye your hair black lah. You look ah-lian..."

So today I went to my mum's salon.

Guess what?

I ended up with black blue hair!! Looks black but look at it carefully, my hair is purplish-blue.

Nice... I like!!

Thanks Mum!!

I can cook!

We ended yesterday blading session pretty early, because it rain so heavily @ ECP.
So I decided to cook. Called Baby if he dares to try my skills and he was game for it.
I took out sis' home encon book and started searching for recipes.
Found two simple dishes and off I went, for gorceries shopping.

When I reached Baby's place, he looked pretty excited too.
Baby: "So you never do this before?"
Me: "Yup! You should feel honoured to be my first guinea pig!"
Baby: "hee.. so how many points do you think you can score?"
Me (confidently): "75/100!"
Baby: "Wow! thats like A1 lor.."
Me: "Yup! I don't care. If they don't turn out nice, you must also finish them!"
Baby: "wah lau... hahaha!"

Then, I started to prepare the food. Caixin washed and steamed. Chopped off mushrooms stems. Magrinate beef slices. Chop garlic and ginger. And started cooking!!

Veg was cooked, did not look so yummy cause I kind of over-steam them. hehehe... Then chaos happened when I was cooking the beef.. guess the fire was too big, the cardboards (Baby's mum used them to block the oil from splashing onto the tables) caught FIRE!!!

I was like, "Oh my GOD!! Baby! Fire!!" Thank God, Baby was in the kitchen with me and he started splashing water onto the cardboard while tryin not to spoil the beef in the wok. After a min or two, the fire was put out. But some ashes got into the wok. Baby managed to save my beef though. And the kitchen... "Cough! Cough!" I can't breath.. Baby and I ran out of the kitchen.

Anyway, we sat down and began to eat. Baby took the beef, "Not bad.." Then the vegetables, "Hmm.. not bad too.." "So how do I score?", I asked. "100.. but one thing not nice.....", he said.
"What? The beef? Veg?", I asked, thinking I did not do that well afterall. "The rice you buy lor.. Don't you think it's not that nice?", he said.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! In the end, Baby ate 3 bowls of rice!! Nope! He did not run toilet in the middle of the night, I have asked him about that. I am very happy! I can cook!!

Anyone else wanna try??

Home - Michael Buble

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I'm fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

ops! Mum did it again!

After our usual Sunday in-line skating session and dinner, Dad offered to pick us up. nice surprise! All of us, sis, her hubby, mr ex-policeman, kiddo bro and me, squeezed in the backseats.

Then Mum started it. "Hey KC, do you know that your changster korkor is getting married?"
KC (my kiddo bro) :"I know.."
Me: "Isn't he already married?"
Mum: "hahaha! Oh, that's only registeration. Actual ceremony is on March next year.. Do you think he will invite you? hahahaha!"

Thats it, Mum! You crossed the line again!!

Me: "He got no balls to do that."

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Lemme clarify things here.

I am all over the past. I am cool about it if any of my friends would wanna keep in touch with him. Cause whatever happened between us has nothing to do with any of you. So if you guys wanna befriend with him, carry on. I am really okie about it. Cross my heart! I am also alright with the fact that sometimes, people will, or even I will mention his name there and then, cause the fact is he was in my life before. A reality I cannot deny of.. Yes, sometimes I will still cry about my past, but it is no longer because of him. I cry for someone else. So please don't misunderstand it..

What I really cannot tolerate is when anyone mention things like, "Oh.. its such a pity.. You guys were such a loving couple.. I thought you guys will get married soon... blah blah blah"
ENOUGH!! I know what happened in my past, I don't need anyone to remind me about them. Its all over! I've move on, he has already move on.. so stop that shit!

Okie, now I hope I have clarified things here. So friends, please be understanding. The past is over..

Things I've learnt recently

All men are the same. They just have different faces so you can tell them apart.
~Marilyn Monroe

You have to let go of something for the one you love. Because you want them to be happy.
~TV advertisement

The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.
~Mal Pancoast

Pimple!!

YES!! I do have pimple problem too!!

I have a huge one that idiotically make itself comfortably on my lower back..

It hurts and itch like mad!

Somebody! Anyone! Destroy it for me! Please!!

#$(@^^%@#@ pimple!!

I'm okie

All the answers to my questions, are answered.

I know what I should do, and I will do it.

I don't wanna live with anymore "what if".

I am going to give my best...

You'll see..