EMO

Feeling "complicated" these days....
Hard to please myself...
Dunno what to do with my overfilled emotions...
And I actually feel D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D..

I don't actually know how to express my feelings now...
I just wanna feel peace..
Feel happy..
Feel loved..
Feel assured...

But everything seems to be so unsure..

I cannot feel that Peace anymore..

So sad..
So emo..

Work work work...

I am starting to hate my job... It's eating me up... slowly..
I do not even have time for myself, needless to say, for my family or friends..
Most of my days, I spend around 1-2 hours in the gym, 6-8 hours of sleep and average of 12 hours at work.. There are days that I do not even have time for gym...
Almost all the days I step into my office, I will not see the sunlight again... Cause by the time I step out of my office, the moon is already out and Orchard Road is almost empty.
Yet, my boss is not happy still.
So why am I still doing this?
This is so damn meaningless to me now.
I need my life back..

Back to those days when I can have some "me-&-myself" time..
Back to those days when I can have some family get-together time..
Back to those days when I can sit down and play a proper mahjong with Ah Ma and dearies..
Back to those days that I can meet my dearies at least once a week...

My life cannot just be revolving with work work work...

I need my life back...