Feelings..

Just read a friend's blog..
Realised that not all the guys out there are insensitive.
This friend isn't that close, in fact I do not know him very well.
But through his blog, he openly declared his feelings towards his girlfriend.
Going into details even the fact that he said he cried..
For a guy to do this, kudos to him.

Honestly speaking,
how many guys you know would do such thing?
Telling the world how vulnerable he is..
I do not even have the courage to do so.
He knew everyone will be reading it, even people who barely knows him, like me.

Oh,
Don't mistaken. He is a pretty well built guy.. quite macho and has a very charming smile.
A look that people can easily label him as a playboy but he obviously is not.

I admire his courage for posting his blog online and let everyone read it.
I would not be able to find the courage to do so.
Only dare to hide my innermost feelings in this cyberworld, knowing only a handful of you will be reading it.

Who will dare to let others know their true feelings?
Without fearing that others will not judge?
Without fearing that people will see them as weaklings?
Without fearing that others will know what they are really thinking about?

I am..
I am quite fearful in fact.
I admit, I have pretty high ego @ times.
I fear to let others know my weak links, my vulnerable moments, and even when I will cry..

And thus I learnt to put on a mask..
Putting it on even more often as I grow older..

Wonder who else has the same feelings as me..
Having the fear that others will judge?

Does it really matter?
What can you really do to change their thoughts?

No..
It does not matter..
Nothing you can really do to change everyone's thought..
Cause you can never please the world just like how not everyone can please you.

Learn to accept the REAL you..

I am..
As I age, I learning to accept the REAL me...