Love holidays!!

I enjoyed myself...
Although I started to miss home since day one in BBK..
Its a week long holiday!

Like Missy M&M said, things will look prettier when I'm back..
Its true..
Things are prettier..
Thanks dearie..

I fell in love with Krabi. Ao Nang beach is beautiful...
Its such a pity that I only have time for Phi Phi island & 1/2 day karyak...
I wanna go back there again...

The only irritating part of the trip is the tour guides & the boat driver...
They are fucking preverts! Hate them!!

So the next time I wanna go...
I'll make sure I'll go with more friends or @ least have a few guy friends along...

I love my new tan...
Love to wake up to the sea...
Love the sound of the waves...
Love the sunshine!

I wanna go back there again...
Dearies, can we please go????

Krabi

I didnt enjoy myself much...

The weather is gloomy...
Sux...

But the people are really nice!!

I miss all of you....

BBK!

I'm so lovin' this!!

Shoppin! Shoppin!Shoppin!!

Sorry dearies.. Really dunno what to buy for you all...

& our massage place has changed!!! WTF!!!

I miss all of you!!!!!!

Finally..

Another episode has just ended...

Finally...


I deserve better...


fuck off..

Hey dearies!

Dearies....

I'm going BBK on friday..
Phi phi island on monday..
Will be back on next thursday..


Any orders?

Argh!!

bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard!bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard! bastard!
B-A-S-T-A-R-D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






phew..

I feel better..

Don't mind

Yes I don't mind the past....





But it hurts to know that I don't exist when he's around...

Frustrated

I'm frustrated with the situation right now..
I don't wanna know more..
I don't wanna get involved..
I don't wanna see his pain & sufferings..
I don't wanna cry..
I don't wanna hear..
I don't wanna understand..
I don't wanna care...



Yet, I can't do it..
I can't leave him alone..



I love him...
Too dearly...

Be strong & still...

In all their eyes, I am strong. Heartless at times. Over-reacting.


But the fact is, I am in denial stage as well.

Just like all of them.

Need for speed!

An average speed of 200km/h drive up Sepang.. The sun was great! Chocolates were my all-time-favourite treats! Excitments filled in the air!

140km/h cornering on the track... Adrenaline rushed! Hate the stupid helmet though.. Headache caused by all the noisy engines around me...

An average speed of 160km/h drive back Johore.. Hungry & sleepy.. The visibilty was worsen by the heavy rain.. Everyone talks no more..

Carwash in Johore.. Fireworks viewing! Stupid corny jokes! Being threatened by "bullies".. Flooded toilet!

Bedtime @ home.. Flashes of the track kept replaying in my head..

sweet...

Bye Aussie dream..

Goodbye Aussie dream..

Have to put on hold till God knows when..

I am not gonna try what the agency suggested. Its for Perth.. I don't wanna go there.. I will wanna try again for Melbourne.

Till that day I visited grandpa. He doesn't look good. I won't wanna leave him.I am scare. Really scare..

Well, yes. There's other factors too. I have other job offers.. From a company that I never expected and from an insituition I have always hoping for. Both job offers will gimme certain job securities. Hmmm.. I am considering both. Seriously considering them. One will gimme really good money, the other one will gimme better benefits & career growth.

Nevertheless, I will have to put my Aussie dream aside for now.

Goodbye Aussie dream..

Tattoo crazzee

I love bud's new tattoo.. Very nice, I like it alot!

Cool!

Now I am seriously thinking of getting another one..

hmmm.. in fact maybe even a 3rd one.

Anyway, bud, I really like yours! Thank God you can really endure my tattoo boy's nonsenses, if not.... Wahahaha!