What if one day..

Few weeks back, a thought came into my mind when I was walking Snow.

"What if one day I see Changster again?"

Hmmm... I dunno how I'll react. I have lots of questions to ask him. Lots. But I dunno which one to start from.

"what have I done that makes you move on so easily?"
"what if I've not tell you about the baby?"
"what if I've stay one more night in Melbourne?"
"what if I did really fight for you?"

Lots of thoughts went through my mind.. Questions that I wanna know the answers to. Well, before I carry on, I need to clarify something.

No, I dun wan him back. But I need a "closure" for this. These questions have been in my head for so long. Knowing them, at least I can know if I am such a lousy person or not. (He used to compare me to his current girlfriend aka his wife.)

Yet, I felt a sense of peace. God spoke to me: "what for, my child?" I smiled. yeah, what for?

So what if I know the answers? Nothing in this world will change.
So what if I am a lousy person to him? God, my family, my friends and my Baby still lurves me.

I smiled.

I found my "closure" that night. Not one that I expected, but its definately better. The one God gave me, made me feel so much more peace. No, I dont need to know the answers to my questions anymore.

So ask me again, what if one day you will to see him again?"

I will not say anything. Nothing need to be spoken.

oh.. maybe one thing, "dun you dare to say my fav song to her on your wedding?!"