the devil read my blog

I had a nightmare last night again...
The freaky part is that, it's similiar to the one i had previously...
They're out to get me..

The previous night, i slept pretty late, around 3am, after talking to baby.
Last night i slept around 3 am too, after reaching home from a late night supper with bud boy & hao, and took half a Valium (I need to sleep, that's why i took the pill).

The previous night i woke up @ around 5am, shouting,"Jesus Christ!".
Last night, i woke up around 5am, shouting, "Jesus Christ!", again.

The previous night, thunder and lighting strike, the moment i opened my eyes.
Last nite, thunder and lighting strike, the moment i opened my eyes.

Within barely 2 weeks, similiar dreams. Freaky!!

Last night, i dreamt....

I was sleeping @ my granny's place. In my old room, on my old bed (its isn't there anymore.) My older bro was sleeping beside me, on the pull-out bed underneath. My sis was sleeping on the other bed (it was my grandpa's, all along). I was being "paralysed", numb all over. The devil then spoke to me, mumbling into my ears. I can't remember what he said or i don't think i understand. Anyway, i was trying hard to struggle. I wanna open my eyes, but i can only peek @ my surroundings. I wanna scream, but my tongue was numb too. I was really scared. I struggled hard, kept praying to GOD till i could only move my left arm. I keep jerking my bro to wake up, and asked him to pray for me. He woke up sheepishly and laughed @ me, saying i had a bad dream. But he did prayed for me anyway. As he prayed, the cupboard behind him (used to be my sis'), opened up. There was a pair of eyes staring straight @ me! This time i screamed "JESUS CHRIST!" (rem my tongue was numb, so i can't scream properly!). The cupboard slammed closed! That's when i kept shouting, "Thank you, Jesus Christ! Thank you, Jesus Christ!"....

Then i woke up. My mouth was dry. My left arm was above my head, my right arm was still hugging snow, whom, surprisingly was still sleeping soundly (they said animals are sensitive!). My legs were crossed. My whole body numb.

I stayed montionless in my bed for more than 5-10 mins. I don't even dare to move a single muscle. Just laying in my bed, listening to the soft thunder. Then my room air fresher scared me. "Psst.." it went, made me jumped in my bed. I began to move my fingers, wet my lips and thinking if i should get out of my bed to relieve myself in the toilet. I was hesitating till i heard my uncle was moving around in the living room. I jumped out of my bed immediately, i need to have another human being's presence next to me badly. Walked out to the toilet, i past my uncle who was sitting in the living room, getting ready to leave for his work. I quickly relieved myself and went back to my room.

On the light on my dresser, light a fag and sent a sms to baby, hoping that he's still awake (okie, we were in some kind of 'cold war', but he's the 1st who came into my mind. I was freaking scared!). Puffing on my fag, my handphone rang, a sms came in. In my head, i was praying hard that it would not be something else that would freak me out again. Thank God, baby replied. I dialed his number straight away, telling him about my dream.

Heed his advise, read my bible. Baby sacrificed his sleeping hours just to pacify me till around 5.30am, i asked him to go back to sleep. Then i continued to read my bible till 8.30am! Gosh! I haven't been reading my bible for so long since i was a kiddo! I read from Genesis 3:1 (The Fall Of Man) till Genesis 46:8 (Jacob Goes to Egypt). I feel so holy molly... haha!

Maybe i have sinned like Eve. I need to repent. The following stories were mostly about how Noah, Abram, Isaac and Jacob followed GOD's instructions faithfully and be blessed. Maybe that's what GOD is reminding me about.

Anyway, i must really thank God from "saving" me in my dreams. Thank you God! This is really like a spiritual warfare to me... Like i said, I will have my faith. I will stay still with Jesus Christ!