It's never easy..

Noone will ever tell you that life is easy..
& if there's ever someone who told you that, i bet he/ she is lying...

I'm facing a few changes in my life now...
Changes that will change my life in many ways...

My boss & his wife are making plans in my career now...
I dunno if this will be a good start for me in this coming 2008 or not..
But nevertheless, I will wanna face up the challenge.

It's gonna be tough..
But I would wanna work it out...
There will be sacrifices to make...
I will make it through..
I know I will..
Yet part of me is shivering in fear..
Fear that I may not be able to make it..

The last time I ever lead a group of people, is during my Secondary school days..
I dunno if I can still do it now..
I'm stressed...


There's something going on in my love life as well...
The fact that I'm getting young no more, hit me hard..
I guess my Dad is rubbing in to me all too sudden, that it kind of wakes me up..
Guess having a married younger sister is no fun..
Everyone in my family is giving me that look,
You know, THAT look like saying, "When's your turn, old spinster?"

I have to do something..
Not like last time, keep thinking that I'm still young..
Cause the fact is, I'm no longer THAT young.

I always thought that I will be married and have kids before my peers and my sibilings..
All thanks to CYL...
Guess I'm proven wrong.

I have to change.
Change to face the reality and stop being in my dreamland..
Hoping that one day my Prince Charming will just appear at my doorstep without me searching for him..

I have to make choices..
Choices that I hate to make..
Choices that will change my life..
It is never easy for me..

I'm really scared...
I really have to grow up..
I can't be that little girl anymore..


I am soooo gonna miss that Happy-go-lucky girl..
Miss that bubbly little girl...