sob sob~

My dearest baby snow is in trouble...

I dunno when it started.. But its making me feel like shit; I'm such a lousy mummy to him..

I realised he had a bruise on his chest 2 days ago, and yesterday, his tail was stained with blood. I cannot wait for his vet appointmant today which I have booked once I saw the bruise, so yesterday, I brought him to the Animal Hospital Clinic (aka A&E).

The vet said it could have been started with just a small scratch and it got worse, that is why snow keep licking & biting his own tail till it bled. The wound is quite deep & bad.. I only can pray that it will recover from the medications & injection. If infection will to set in, snow may have half of his tail amputated. *sob sob* I do not want that to happen to my baby.

Now his tail is being bandaged up. I have to put the Elizabethan collar on for him to prevent him from licking his tail & paws. Yes, his paws are sore too. But I realised he will not move with the collar on. Neither will he eat nor drink. He will just stand at a corner for a long period or he will just knock into the wall. I cannot go work in peace like that. But luckily, my client's family is understanding enough.

Now I am his private nurse. I really don't wanna see him suffer.. My poor baby.. Have to postpone his dental surgery for now. I'm so worried. The last check up, his vet said, his liver seems to have some little problem. She gave him some antibiotic & vitamins but snow just refused to eat them even when I tried the usual trick of stuffing the med into his food. Guess he found out my trick. He is such a smart old man.

I guess his age is really catching up. Friends are telling me so too.
I don't wanna see snow suffer. I don't wanna know he's leaving me in few years' time. I can't bear to know how life will be without him. Without him scratching at the door the moment I am unlocking the gate. Without him jumping up & down the moment I got home. Without a furry warm teddy for me to hug every night. Without his stinky pee & poo in my room. Without his stinky breath waking me up every morning. Without him licking away my tears when I'm sad & crying.



*sob sob* I love snow... Please help me to pray for my baby, dearies...